I have a strong feeling that exploring spiritualism and my spirituality is the right path for me just now. I feel drawn to explore more about the angels, perhaps because of my Protestant upbringing. It feels connected to something I understand and that has brought me a lot of peace over the years. I just don’t feel that I need the specific structure of organised religion at this time. Moving forward, I want to learn more about my own angels as well as the Archangels that can help us in specific areas. I want them to support me in all that I do and hope to be able to receive and interpret their messages. I want to learn more about angel numbers and how they might appear to me.

I love learning new things and get very excited about acquiring knowledge, so exploring my spirituality isn’t likely to be any different. Once the decision was made that the angel cards I’d bought were meant for me and that I wanted to know more, I wanted to find a way to achieve this as best as I could. I looked for information online and Udemy jumped out at me. I’ve used it before to learn about computer programs for college so I was familiar with the set up but hadn’t thought of it as offering anything like this. In the end, I was drawn to Sal Jade’s course – How to Be Psychic – Psychic Development for Beginners. The course covers how to protect yourself and how to use crystals, incense, and candles to help you to be more connected. In fact, as I looked around me to see if I had anything I could use, I realised that I have John’s Laughing Buddha that he was quite insistent that I have, and a large purple patchouli candle that he had sent me a long time ago. It also introduces chakras, reading oracle cards, and becoming more attuned to your clairs. As part of that, it suggested keeping a dream diary so I have started doing that too, slowly finding signs where before I could see none. The course isn’t incredibly in depth but I do think it’s an area that needs to come largely from intuition, so a course that guides rather than instructs is probably most appropriate.

I was really quite excited to see that my Oracle of the Angels deck by Mario Duguay was one of Sal Jade’s recommended decks. I was also drawn to another deck she discussed: The Psychic Tarot oracle cards. These draw heavily from tarot cards but they don’t include the court cards or tens, so they are not tarot cards in the traditional sense. They are intended for use much like my angel cards but offering a wider, more material reading that the spiritual one offered by the angel cards – although maybe that’s just because the cards want to keep highlighting spirituality to me. Somehow, they found their way into my Amazon basket…

But it still didn’t feel complete. As I wandered around the internet looking at all the many oracle and tarot cards, I wanted more. Something that could maybe offer a deeper, more complex reading. Tarot cards have always scared me – not for the cards like death, but for their complexity. And yet I couldn’t stop looking. I didn’t get a good feeling from the ubiquitous Rider-Waite/Waite-Colman-Smith decks, and as beautiful as some of the other decks based on it are, nothing felt right. I thought back to my first night looking for angel cards and the blog that had led me to my first deck. As I’d flicked through some of his other posts, I had seen some cards that almost felt like a vibration inside me. There was an image of the 9 of Swords that had stayed with me, and I loved it’s pattern and uniformity. It was a Tarot de Marseille deck so not as common as the other decks, and less information about it was available online. There was even a sense that they are not good beginner cards, and yet I knew they were meant to be mine. So a deck of CBD Tarot de Marseille cards by Dr Yoav Ben-Dov also made it into my basket… I get the feeling that choosing cards could become quite important.

I hope to do some sort of reading each day, though sometimes there isn’t the time to devote to really understanding what they are trying to tell me, especially when I’m so new and want to explore every nuance before deciding what feels more like the right message for me. I have started recording my readings here but they won’t necessarily be daily – especially as I return to college. I think that level of pressure would make me burn out and switch off. So as and when I do a reading, I will aim to record it here. How frequent they’ll be, I don’t know. Doing them regularly at the moment feels right as it gives me a lot of practice but life is for living too.

So here I am in the early stages of this spiritual exploration. I’m hoping that it helps me to bring more consciousness and connection into my life.